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Wednesday, March 31, 2004

haiz. juz now sum1 told me smth bout him. i was totally devastated lorz, dunno to be sad or angry. can sae a mixture of both la. he told me dat my 'ex' stead wif me juz to get 'experience'. JUST TO GET EXPERIENCE. juz FOR EXPERIENCE. wad the heck does he think i am? some dummy person he can test on ar? wad the f*ck does he wan man. he stead wif me juz to get experience so dat he can stead wif the ger dat he likes, so dat he will noe how to treat her and everything. i didn't noe he was such a person lorz. he thinks dat by cheatin on a person, he can get his experience and den he can get the ger he wants. FAT HOPE LAR! i feel so stupid now, being cheated and everything. ARGHH i feel like stabbin his heart into holes man. i hate him. i hate him into shreds. if he thinks dat by doing dis, he can get away so easily, he's so wrong. SO WRONG. i regret every single tear i have shed for him. i regret everything i've said to him. i regret everything datz gotta do wif him. he looks innocent enough though, but he's NOT. i didn expect dis to happen. thank God dat sum1 told me, or else i would b blindfolded in dis forever, standin there stupidly, not knowin dat i'm being cheated. i hate myself for being so stupid. i hate myself for being so mellow. i was suspicious of him at one time, but my heart was too soft, and i trusted him too much. he lied to me. lied so much, dat he has commited so many sins. i'm sure dat God will give him retribution. i hate him. he juz cannot b trusted. i've lost all my faith. to think i still treated him as a fren a few hours ago. i can't believe it. he's 1 bloody hell f*cker. u should b able to guess whu izzit ba, its so obvious.. to ___r_c_, i hate u. let me tell u dat u will get ur retribution. u wun get away. trust me. watch out, when u cross the road. u never noe when ur face is gonna be on the 6pm and 10pm news. and if dat ger ever noes dat she is being liked by ___r_c_, may God bless ya. =)

let love in. ♥ 6:37 PM

Monday, March 29, 2004

todae was a fun dae! did our presentation script wif my 'mummy' and ms singh and shobana dey all... wahaha... as the sayin goes: rEvenGe iS SWEET... onli kym noe wad i'm referring to... hEEz long story, no time to elaborate... =P den aft sch pei-ed yF to chinatown to find her aunt to get smth... the lemon-juice dey sell there so sour! our faces scrunched when we drank it lorz... lolz... i hope she will b ok... =)... sian tonite muz do compo... heng i juz now finish e-maths le... wahaha... ok lorz, go bathe lerz.. later mama NAG.. anyway, howz my new skin?

let love in. ♥ 6:43 PM

Sunday, March 28, 2004

wah sia la finally finished e-maths file!!! wahaha... gt a load off my head le... spent a solid 3 hours on it lorz, dun play play... din even do bio and physics coz left it in sch.. den todae actually went back to sch to take but all the gates locked.. =( wasted trip... wah i scared tom tio pSm for a-mathz... coz i think i din do the 'mr.chen' way... hope not... wahaha... now waitin for my cheese fries... =P

let love in. ♥ 5:23 PM

Saturday, March 27, 2004

paiseh nv blog for 1 week... last week was too busy wif tests and such... chem and e-maths.. =( but finish le... hope can pass!!! lolz... hEEz todae went to watch scooby doo wif mum and sis.. farnie!!! com effects nt bad.. shld watch.. pity passion of the christ is m18... cryz i cannot watch!! nvm vcd cum out den go and buy ba... haha... den aft dat went for guitar lesson... *grins* saw gerald!! wah i melt le... super shuai... *giGgLE* lolz... todae learnt another pattern of strummin... fun!!! wahaha... guess i figured out the pickin pattern for blue's breathe easy... later hope can find the chords den can play le~ oh yupz, for ppl whu noe how to play guitar and are searchin for tabs, www.ultimate-guitar.com is a GREAT webbie... oh gosh late le... gotta slp le, othwise mumz gonna nag coz tom goin to bai my grandmother... okie shall blog tom... niTez!!! =)

let love in. ♥ 11:26 PM

Saturday, March 20, 2004

cryz todae no guitar lesson... cannot c gerald liao... lolz... nvm nxt week ba... todae was quite a sian dae... went to hG mall to return library bk and get a glass wine cup to put my sand and shells... kawaii! den me stuck alphabet macaroni to form a quote: iT iS nOT wHat sEEms faiR, bUT wHat iS tRue; noT wHat wE dReaM, buT wHat wE dO... meaningful rite? haha found it in a book bout God... okie lorz, nth much le... niTEs... =)

let love in. ♥ 10:04 PM

Friday, March 19, 2004

farnie joke:
One day an elephant met a camel.
> > Elephant asked, "Why your neh neh grow at your back?"
> > Camel angry, said, "Why don't you ask yourself why your "ku ku jiao"
> > grow on your face?"

let love in. ♥ 10:26 PM

yo! me back in s'pore le... cryz i miss the weather there in australia... there so coolin here so warm... die liao, i still got alot of a-maths haven do yet... lol though i brought it to perth to do but... hehe no mood to do.. but at least gt do abit... nvm later i got tuition den can ask my cousin.. haha... sian ar, aft 2 days den back to stress liaoz... =( ... so now muz chill... wahaha... k lor later den blog again... =)

let love in. ♥ 2:09 PM

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

todae went to caversham wildlife park... saw cute koalas!!! and wombats too... went to stroke them... sho cute!!! den went to dis winery... tasted wine.. hehe... but nv got drunk la... the beach is like so beautiful!!! picked lots of shells and got sand... gonna put it into a bottle when i go home... walked barefoot in the sand... wah gd sia, sand exfoliates ur dead cells... aft dat my feet smooth smooth one.. haha... i goin back tom le... boohoo... lolz...

let love in. ♥ 10:01 PM

i hate how i feel
staring at myself
i hate wad i see
all the worlds' rejected me
there is nothing i want in me
i placed my broken heart
in ur nail-pierced hands
its the onli place its safe
at ur cross of grace
now i willing let You
have Your way in me
plz make me all You've meant me to be
You've set me free
You gave me liberty
I'm all i'm born to be
You loved me as me
You've set me free
You gave me liberty
i'm all i'm born to be
I'm gonna walk dis life wif u
You're holdin my hand
You will see me thru
And though i may stumble
Though i may fall
You never give up on me

Dear lord, thanks for bein there when i'm down. thank u for lettin me noe dat there is still love for me in dis world. i will perservere wif strength in loving u and u noe whu. thanks for giving me the strength. i pray in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

let love in. ♥ 9:52 PM

Monday, March 15, 2004

hi!!! bloggin again... wahaha currently been craziley shoppin for the last few dayz... went to lots of surf shops and bought billabong stuff!!! wahaha.. i'm startin to get the australian accent... great! its so fun... gd'day mate! lolz... bought 1 spongebob comic todae... $6... quite ex budden s'pore dun have... so nvm... haha... bought shorts too.. redsand de... tom going back hilary harbour to change another bag, coz the strap dere got 1 tear... hope can change... den going to sum wildlife park.. go and feed kanggies and koalas... wah time runnin out le... i told the man i use 1 hr onli... here the cybercafe 1 hr $3... i stop liao, muz log out otherwise later the internet suddenly dun have liao den jialat... shall blog soon ya? ciaoz~

let love in. ♥ 10:09 PM

Saturday, March 13, 2004

HARLOWX!!!!! i in perth now!!! at dis cybercafe... wahaha... its like so fun here... except for the fact dat juz now the heater was nt working and i was practically bathing in ICY COLD water... shivering like siao ar... bRRR... now drinking bubble tea!!!! wahaha... den the best thing is, my sis staying overnite at my apartment todae!!! thanks God... i'm gonna shop like mad here!!! watched love actually and duplex on the plane... den finally realised smth aft watchin love actually... loving sum1, definitely will hurt 1. if u give up easily, u will never ever win the heart of the person.. so i'll juz love naturally, i wun force myself to give up coz its like putting a strain in me and sumore its not true coz the person is still in my heart... i brought along my dog... cannot leave wifout it... i miss u...

let love in. ♥ 9:14 PM

Friday, March 12, 2004

yoyoyo!!! paiseh ytd nv blog coz i gt tuition... sia la stupid donkey chen give so much a-maths hw... hai me holiday oso cannot xiang shou... wah lau our holiday is nt holiday lorz... still muz do hw... -___-"|... todae stayed back in sch for library duty, basically slacked thruout the 1 and 1/2 hours... lol me and yf go outside walk walk when teacher nv c... wahaha i noe we very bad budden we no mood to do duty ma... budden at least we got tidy the library abit, coz tom our library having 2 workshops so muz make nice nice... juz packed my bag... tom going australia, perth!!! wahaha... so paiseh, nxt 5 days wun b bloggin... i'll get lotsa chocolates back ya? hEEz... i dis time go dere find my sis... den we shall shop like mad!!! i excited siaz... lolz... hope can buy lotsa nice stuff back 2... later gt american idol 'uncut, uncensored' ... wahaha muz rem to watch ya? i go help my sis pack the stuff she wants le... take care every1... shall blog soon!!! =)

let love in. ♥ 9:19 PM

yoyoyo!!! paiseh ytd nv blog coz i gt tuition... sia la stupid donkey chen give so much a-maths hw... hai me holiday oso cannot xiang shou... wah lau our holiday is nt holiday lorz... still muz do hw... -___-"|... todae stayed back in sch for library duty, basically slacked thruout the 1 and 1/2 hours... lol me and yf go outside walk walk when teacher nv c... wahaha i noe we very bad budden we no mood to do duty ma... budden at least we got tidy the library abit, coz tom our library having 2 workshops so muz make nice nice... juz packed my bag... tom going australia, perth!!! wahaha... so paiseh, nxt 5 days wun b bloggin... i'll get lotsa chocolates back ya? hEEz... i dis time go dere find my sis... den we shall shop like mad!!! i excited siaz... lolz... hope can buy lotsa nice stuff back 2... later gt americal idol 'uncut, uncensored' ... wahaha muz rem to watch ya? i go help my sis pack the stuff she wants le... take care every1... shall blog soon!!! =)

let love in. ♥ 9:19 PM

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

yoZ... paiseh ytd nv blog... was busy studying killer bio... memorize like siao!!! in the end i memorized den during exam i puke all back to teacher... wahaha... sia la tom chinese test... hEEz... den aft dat is holiday!!!!!!!!!! wahaha... todae was a funny day... gu0ming was asking bout c_eav_age... fill in the blanks haha... den kym told him its a drain in the chest... den his expressioon darn funny!!!!! cute sia he... everyday he will make me laugh 1, no matter how bad my mood is... especially his ku gua lian... lolz... thanks... wahaha... juz ate candy floss... dis uncle's floss nt gd 1, all cluster together den hard hard 1... =(... budden at least half of the pack is edible... i go study chinese liao... ciaoz~

let love in. ♥ 8:58 PM

Monday, March 08, 2004

its still rainin... todae rainie day... cold siaz... wahaha but at least better than hot... todae photo taking... very fun!!! hope the pics turn out nice... hEEz todae was quite an okay dae... although kym told me sum unpleasant things... budden i wun care bout it la, dey wan sae wad dey go and sae lorz... i'm getting fat~ eating pringles now... wahaha nice siaz... lolz... i juz passed my physics.. 12/24.. heng sia, damien saved me... i write crap he oso gimme half mark... thanks eh? i will work hard on physics... =)

let love in. ♥ 9:10 PM

how i wish
all of this
never happened
we would still be
on talking terms
still be friends
and not strangers
how i wish
all of this
would happen
in another different way
we would still be
together forever
hearts binded in unison
_+ i.LoVe.u +_

let love in. ♥ 9:03 PM

Sunday, March 07, 2004

yoz!!! its me bloggin' again... lolz... wah juz now do a and e maths until wan to puke... *_*... yayz i manage to finish all the sums i din do... wahaha... went to hG mall to get the stuffs dat my sis in perth wants... goin to find her during march hols... yayz!!! lolz... me very contented liao, coz i ate suSHi... wah song man... hEEz... tom photo taking!!! i'm sho excited... i've thot bout it le, though i'm heartbroken, i muz nt always cling onto the past... i muz look to the present... besides, its nt the end of the world rite? we r still gd frenz and i treat him as my kor... wahaha... i go eat le... yummy seafood soup waitin for mE!!! tata~

let love in. ♥ 6:04 PM

wah juz came back frm the morning run... shuang man, think will jian abit of fats ba... haha budden i run halfway den gt stitches den muz stop... -___-"| but lucky yF pei me... lolz we very siao lorz, we march den shout the 'left left left right left' command... sumore we march near the road lehz, i think ppl in the car pass will think we siao lorz, early morning 2 gers marching at the road pavement... most funny 1 is 1 army guy jog past... damn paiseh... but had alot of fun... wahaha... still happy dat he smiled at mE!!! melt liaoz... *melt away*... lolz... 11.30 liao, i go watch spongebob le... buaiZ shall blog later again... =)

let love in. ♥ 11:25 AM

Saturday, March 06, 2004

wahaha i sho happy!!! todae went for guitar lesson... learnt d and a7 chords... wah a7 is so darn hard lorz, 1st finger muz press 2 strings... my finger de meat very pain... =( but wan to learn guitar den sure finger will pain 1 lorz, or else cannot play liaoz... wahaha... todae my guitar claz dat shuai ge smile at mE!!! wah can melt siaz... he very shuai!!! lolz... die liao i going crazy... lolz... tom morn going macritchie wif yF... go run and lose all the fAtS... wahaha... hope both of us can wake up... hEEz later muz rem watch 'r u hot???' cool show, though its a repeat telecast... i see the gers in the show i zi bei siaz... their bodies are like so perfect!!! but sum de chest abit too biG la, too biG nt nice... i oso dunno y americans like to go for implants... later bump into sum 1 in the chest den inside the silicon bag break how??! lolz... waste $$...

let love in. ♥ 9:27 PM

hi ya good morning... eh no shld b good aftnoon... wah last nite actually wan watch dirty laundry 1.. budden watch halfway den fell asleep.. den zhun zhun when the show finish liao den i wake up... pEnG siaz... lolz... the guy in the show very shuai... hEEz... todae is guitar lesson dae... later going j8 wif mum and dad... dunno will c whitleyans anot... confirm will 1 la, but dunno whu... k lorz later den blog again... ciaoz~

let love in. ♥ 12:37 PM

Friday, March 05, 2004

yay... finally got my new blog... dis skin nt bad hor? i ownself create one... add a little bit here a little bit dere... haha todae was quite a fun day... during e-maths ms tan blew her top... coz we complain she give us too much questions to do... den during eng we went to the library... haha shuang coz can enjoy aircon... todae i was pondering again... he doesn't seem to care although he kou kou sheng sheng sae dat u noe... shan't sae wad he sae... haiz i dunno la... heart is bleeding and at a loss now...

let love in. ♥ 10:09 PM